Trust God's timing

Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart. ~Psalm 37:4

This has been a verse that I have read many times and I would agree with it but I had never truly grasped what it says and have never truly put it into practice. Yeah, I went to this verse when I was deciding on what to do after graduating but in the end, that was a decision I had to pray about since both of the options I was face with was the desire of my heart. As work is starting to pick up some and as I continue to live in Texas, I have been finding myself having to cling to God more. I have also started to realize that you have to pray and ask God for the desires of your heart. Yes, God already knows all of this, but He wants us to know that and to ask Him for the desires of our heart. When we ask and when we receive then we get the chance to see God at work and know the power of prayer and the desires of God.

With going into week 3 of work, I have been frustrated with how things have gone since I like being organized and knowing what’s going to happen. However, God has allowed things to be “chaotic” in my terms of things. Now, why would God allow me to be frustrated when I am doing ministry and why wouldn’t He have things go 100% smoothly? I may not know the complete answer to that, however, I do believe that it is in part do to the fact that God has been wanting me to come to Him and seek Him above all else. In the midst of all the transition and change, I had found myself slipping from God’s presence. I had found myself trying to do things on my own, and I had sadly forgotten how I got to where I am and why I am here. This is not just ministry but it’s a time to grow closer to God.

Yesterday, God showed up and made Himself clear. I went to church with the neighbors and I will be honest and say that I didn’t connect with God there but then I went to First United Methodist Church of Richardson and it was there that God showed up and He continued to show up the rest of the night. Worship is starting to become a major part of how I connect with God and how God speaks to me and we ended up singing a song called, “In Your Presence” by Elevation Worship and it was from the words of the song that I was reminded that God is with me and has never left me. No matter how far I fall, God is there to catch me and no matter how much I try to do things on my own, God is there for me to turn to and guide me and help me with the task ahead of me.

So, I was frustrated with work and what I was going to be doing. I didn’t understand and I needed clarity so I prayed and God answered and gave me clarity. Then I was talking with my host family from Costa Rica and was telling them that I miss speaking Spanish and want to be able to use it while I am serving here in Dallas, and today God answered me. I will be helping with translating at some point possibly this week. Now, I will be honest and say that this is stretching for me since I haven’t used Spanish for about 9-10 months now but once again, I have to remind myself to ask God for the help and He will be there. You see, God’s not just going to give us everything we want without asking, we have to do the work and we have to ask and do our part in making it happen. It would be easy to give up and say God is holding back on us but trust scripture and trust God. God wants to see us succeed and He wants to help us, He wants to give us the desires of our heart and I was reminded of that today and yesterday. Now, I am sure I will still have days that I forget to look toward God for the help and I will try to do things on my own but that’s apart of human nature. We are not perfect and when I do fail, I know that God will be there to pick me back up again (and probably be shaking His head in disbelief that I would keep trying on my own) since God wants to help us, He loves us so much that He is on our side. So, why fail and do things on our own? Why keep things to ourselves rather than to go to God and ask Him for help and bring our concerns, our failures, our hopes, our desires, etc to Him? He already knows them, but He wants us to bring them to Him and lay them down at His feet. He wants us to speak up and have a conversation with Him just like we do with a friend.

So, what do you need to ask God for today? What are you trying to do on your own but keep failing at? What do you need to be talking to God about? What are the desires of your heart? When was the last time that you went to God and asked Him for something? (He may not answer in the way that we want but He will answer… He may not answer in our timing, but He will answer) so trust God, ask God, and watch God work and answer you! You will never know unless you ask, so ask and see where things will take you!