Reality of ministry

I wasn’t going to write a blog post tonight but felt ended up feeling like it would be a good idea to write so here’s what going on. Today reality struck me. I am going onto 3 weeks of being in Texas and 2 weeks of working at my placement site. Even though I have settled into my new environment, it truly didn’t dawn on me until today when I was heading to work what it is that I am doing. I am living a missionary life and a life for God. With that comes a lot of sacrifice and commitment. One of the sacrifices that come with being in ministry is the reality that I won’t be around for the holidays. The holidays have always been a time for my family to get together but this year will be different. I will more than likely be spending the holidays in Texas rather than home in Indiana with my family and that’s honestly a hard realization to accept. My family means a lot to me and even though I am probably close to a 20-hour drive away from home, they are still always on my mind. I have been there for my niece and nephews since they were born so not being there for them now is hard.

Again, I enjoy the organization I am partnering with and the people that I work with but as the holidays to come closer, I know that it will become harder to be here in Texas. I know that it’s awhile away but prayers are appreciated as I am missing family and friends. I call home once a week and talk to friends every once in awhile but virtual communication is not the same as being there in person. I guess you never know what it is that you had until you leave it behind. God ended up calling the disciples and led them away from their homes, occupations, family, etc. Now I am able to relate to the disciples since I am in the midst of being gone and in some sense, starting a new life and journey. It’s not always easy but I know this is where God has led me and He will be my strength when I am weak and my guide when I am lost.