The struggle of support

This past week, things kept seeming to go down hill. The vehicle I was driving started acting up and I found myself dependent on others for help… I am going to stop there for a second, if anyone knows me then you know that it’s not easy for me to ask for help yet I found myself in a situation where I had to ask for help. The vehicle was out of my control and again, if you know me then you know that I prefer having some control over my situation yet this was different.

So, I had no control over the situation or what would happen and I had to ask for help and be dependent on others. While writing that last sentence, I am thinking about how God wants us to be dependent upon Him and ask Him for help and allow Him to have the control over our lives and every situation. Everything that I just stated that it hard for me. I am a believer that in every situation there is something that God wants to teach us and show us. For me, I guess it was partially the fact that I need to put all of the above in God’s hands.  I need to give up control to God, I need to be completely dependent upon God, and I need to ask God for help. Yeah, all of those are challenges due to my human nature and what this world says.

Part of being a US-2 young adult missionary is that I am supposed to raise some financial support and this has been a difficult process for me. I have asked people and have been told no more than yes. In fact, I haven’t really been told a definite yes that someone wanted to partner with me in being a financial supporter. Support raising is not easy and it goes back to what I was saying above. I need to give the control of support raising to God, I need to be dependent on God and trust that He will provide the support that I need once I do the work on my end. I also need to ask God for help in this area and that He would direct me to those to send emails or letters to.  Since I don’t like asking for help, this is hard for me to do. Since I don’t like asking for things, especially when it comes to money, this is very hard for me to do. But then again, God has a reason for everything and support raising is about more than the financial aspect of it.

During the time that I was relying on others and getting help to get to and from work, one of the conversations that came up was on support raising. That conversation was one that I needed to hear since I have often wondered how I could continue with ministry after these 2 years if I can’t even raise the support that I need right now. And trust me, it’s a minimal amount of support compared to the other ministries that I had applied for and looked into before becoming a US-2 missionary. This is where putting complete trust in God, giving complete control over to God, and asking God for help comes into play.

Support raising is a place where as a missionary, I have to put complete trust and control into God’s hands since I don’t know how the funds will be raised but God does. God knows what is needed and He has called me into ministry, not for me to fail but for me to grow. As I stated earlier, support raising is about more than just money. It’s about relationships. While raising support, you are also sending out newsletters, emails, and staying in contact with people and therefore building relationship or growing relationship with others. This is also a time to allow those that can’t physically go into full time ministry, to be apart of the ministry that you are doing.

So, this leads me to wondering once again, how am I going to raise the support that we are asked to raise? I have seen God provide numerous times and many times it has been around financial needs so I trust that God will provide once again. I pray that God leads me into relationship with those that are looking for a ministry to partner with and support. And I pray that God continues using these next 2 years as a time to rely on Him, grow in Him, see where He is currently at work, works in my life, and so much more! I want these next 2 years to be a time that I don’t regret but a time that I leave from, knowing that I was where God wanted me to be and learned what God wanted me to get out the experience.

So, to whoever is reading this, thanks for following my blog posts and I ask that you join me in praying for these next 2 years. Pray that God will bring me into relationship with those that are wanting to financially support a ministry, pray that I continue to trust God every day, pray that I grow in my relationship with Christ and get back into a routine of having daily devotionals, and pray for the financial support to come in.

If you are someone that wants to partner with me in the ministry that I am doing financially, then please talk to me and I will get you the information that you need in order to do so. Or, if you just want to know more about what specifically it is that I am doing in Texas, then please leave a comment since I would be more than glad to talk with you about the ministry that I am apart of, the organization I am partnering with, and the work that I am doing!

Thanks and blessings and please let me know how I can be praying for you all!