Three months has gone by without writing a new blog post and
a lot has been going on and taking place. At the end of September I flew back
out to New York to meet up with the rest of the US-2 missionaries from my class
for catching up with one another, additional training, and debriefing the past
year in ministry and what is yet to come. It’s hard to believe that it’s been
over a year already and that my time as a US-2 young adult missionary ends in
July (7 months), which will fly by just like the past year has.
I’ve enjoyed where God has brought me and the work I have
been doing in Texas and it scares me to think about ending my missionary
assignment. While it’s only a 2-year assignment, I am intending on remaining in
Dallas where I have been accepted into Perkins School of Theology where I will
be getting my Master of Arts in Ministry with a concentration in Theology/
Social Justice. I am excited about continuing my journey in full time ministry
however, there are still questions lingering around that scare me.
I’ve realized early on in college that I wanted to go into
full time ministry however, with majoring in Spanish I always desired to be in
Latin America where I could be using Spanish. Every day I find myself missing
Costa Rica and my time of being embraced in the culture and using Spanish every
day. I realize that it’s always going to be a longing and desire to be abroad
but with that comes a lot of fear and worry.
For now, I am remaining in Texas but anymore I’m not sure
that it will be a lasting ordeal. I’ve found myself in the midst of having to
make tough decisions and continuing to have to say good-bye to family and
friends. I’ve found myself missing family and being heart broken for the times
that I’m not around to see my niece and nephews grow up. With decisions needing
to be made and ones that may alter my future and my life, I have to try to
remember to keep God in the midst of my decision-making and know that He is
with me every step of the way.
Making hard choices isn’t easy but God’s got us. He calls us
to step out of the boat of comfort and onto the water and rely on Him and His
guidance. We may find ourselves sinking at times once we leave the boat and
wanting to get back into the boat but we need to keep pushing forward and
stepping out in faith and trusting God!
Please be praying for me while I face choices needing to be
made and find myself faced with questions and uncertainties during this time.
