Where are things taking me? That’s a question that I often
ask myself and I can imagine that many other people are the same way. We are
always on a lookout for what’s next and what is to come and we want to see the
bigger picture. While many times, God will not reveal the bigger picture to us,
He will show us where to go one step at a time and place us where we need to
be.
Many people know that TX was never on my radar of places to
end up and I would never have imagined myself working with a non-profit
organization (it just never crossed my mind) but it was always apart of God’s
plan for me. Ending up in TX has been one of the best and most challenging
things to happen to me. I never thought that I would get attached to TX and
call it “home”.
This past week I had the chance to take a week vacation and
return home to Indiana and it was there that God truly started to confirm
things for me. While spending time with friends and family, I finally realized
that we will always miss friends, family, and the familiar but there will be a
time that God calls us to leave that all behind but while leaving and being in
transition, God will provide us with a peace and a new “home”. While I find it
hard to say that TX is home for me, I know in my heart that TX is apart of me
now and that it is another home for me and with that being said, while being
back in Indiana I realized that for now and for the near future, I don’t see
myself returning to live in Indiana but can see myself staying in TX.
I can tell that God’s stirring things up in me and has
drastically changed my perspective on many things including what I had planned
5 years ago when I started college. None of my plans worked out and it’s been a
journey of living by faith and trusting God with the outcome. It’s become a
journey of relying on God and trusting that He knows best and will lead me
where I need to be. After all, TX and working with a non-profit organization
NEVER crossed my mind so how did I end up here?
Now, as I have entered into year 2 of the US-2 program, I
find myself wondering where will things take me and after being home and
talking to some people, I find myself once again looking to a place where I
never thought I would go. Yes I had thought about it and considered it but I always
said no to the option. I am now looking into going back to school to get a
masters degree in ministry. While I still in no way want to become ordained,
become clergy, etc… There is a desire inside me to get a stronger foundation of
my faith and to get a better grasp and understanding theologically of ministry
and the work that I have found myself to be passionate about and wanting to
continue to pursue.
Only time will tell where I will end up since I know God can
change up my entire plan but for now, that’s where I feel God is leading me and
taking me.
